"Time will ease your pain. Life's about changing. Nothing ever stays the same." That Patty Loveless song from 1999 has run through my mind many, many times. Mostly because it is so true. And then there's that great quote from The Sound of Music, "When God closes a door, He always opens a window." Also true.
That beautiful horse in the picture above, is gone from our lives now. He looks so wonderful there. We were so lucky to have him. I wonder if we will come across another as good, ever.
I had to make that horrible, horrible decision to say goodbye to Reno, the best horse ever, in the fall. He was 29 and I only got to love him for 5 years. What a great 5 years he gave me. It was a beautiful day, and I didn't want to try to coax him through a tough winter when he couldn't really eat hay very well. He was showing signs of pre-Cushing's syndrome, and was even foundering on the grass that came in after the drought ended. So I couldn't turn him out very much, and he couldn't eat hay very well! It was not a good situation.
It was the right albeit terrible decision. Several friends, whom I will never be able to repay, came and managed the whole process for me. I could not attend. Some may be able to do that, but when I talked with the vet on the phone, even she said she couldn't do it with her own horses. The only good side to it, was that he could be buried here. We had enough discussed it with several friends who had experience with the process and although Handyman thought it would be nigh-on impossible, it wasn't---again, thanks to some very helpful friends.
"Hi...if you're not doing anything today, could you come attend the euthanization of my 1000 lb. pet and put him in the ground for us? That would be great. Thanks! Oh, and I won't be here. So good luck with all that."
He is gone but not forgotten and we are getting a stone carved for his site, and planting a super knockout rose outside the fence nearby (otherwise those silly goats will eat it.)
Princess is a little lonely without him, but she does have her goatie girls. I am not sure if I am actually done with horses. I did get bucked off my neighbor's horse soon after Reno was gone. It was not fun. Probably the most painful part (okay not really), was that I was hurt and could not get back on and ride that sucker into submission myself. Fortunately, I wasn't so hurt that I couldn't drive a bus!
That realization that comes over you as you do the quicky assessment, while still lying on the ground....nothing is broke, but something is definitely messed up---dang! he is going to step on me if I don't move fast, and what will happen to my family if I am REALLY injured?! No surgery today if I can get up quickly! (which I did.) But my back/pelvis was jammed up for about 3 weeks. Sleeping on heating pad, Aleve for breakfast and very slow walking for about a month, and I am back to normal. Also made me miss Reno all the more.
It was a nasty buck and twist and brought my age right into focus. Will I keep doing this? Should I just move over to dogs for good? Handyman would love to turn that barn into a woodshop. What about llamas? Yeah. Llamas! They can't kill me and #3 would love to show a llama at the fair.
Me? The one who has looked down my nose at llamas for many years, is actually signing the little one up to lease a llama for the summer. Pack up the chaps, Honey. We're getting a pet that can spit at us! :) Oh, and you don't have to shovel their poop, and they don't need a farrier, and they don't bite or kick or rear or buck. And, oh yeah...you can't ride them. :(
Handyman wants to buy me a mountain bike...so we can spend time together. It's pretty hard to say no to that. I'm just not sure if I'm interested in working that hard. Something about having the animal do the work, while I just hang on...but then we won't be hanging out together...
Well, you gotta try these things out, or you'll never know. I don't think I would be able to turn down just the right horse if it came walking into my life, though. We may borrow a horse from a friend, just for a companion. But I'm not sure I'm ready to sell my saddle yet.
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